Sometimes I'd like to ask God why He allows poverty, famine and injustice when He could do something about it. But I'm afraid God might ask me the same question.

Thursday, May 7, 2009

The Hard Part...

Today has been the toughest day thus far, the day that we are so lucky to have experienced, but the day that this fairytale like story that I have been telling starts. We visited Finn's orphanage and finding place today. My heart now has a few hundred new holes in it, each one is a face eternally etched. So many children, so many rooms, there is no way to spin it. It is just not right. We have seen a bit of a switch in Finn since this afternoon, she is grieving and testing us a bit. I know it is a good thing in the grand scheme of things. She needs to know that she trusts us and to trust us she will need to test us. It's not the easy rosy part, but thus far we have been the recipients of her beautiful indiscriminate love, we will now have to prove ourselves to her. These brave children, I want to take all their hurt, but my heart can't bear it either.One of the "baby rooms" at the orphanage. 

In front of the orphanage.  
"I'm Outta here"

This busy street was the beginning of our story.  

Finn loves to walk around and explore the island.  She can't get enough of the hustle and bustle.  She is so curious about everything and everyone. 

Tomorrow is an easy relaxing day, we are going to the Pearl markets with "Ann" the same woman that helped us send care packages to Finn while we were waiting.  


Bobbi said...

We did not get to see any rooms with fact..the entire time that we spent at the CWI, we did not see a single child. I am glad that you got to see more...even though it is so hard. Finn is starting to trust you...that is an incredible thing...even though it is hard, too. Praying big for you guys!!

monica said...

The memory of seeing those children still sits heavy in my heart, too. Finn is beautiful, happy, enthusiastic about life and ready for her brand new world. Peace and love, Monica

Jennifer Barbee said...

Praying for you and Finn. I remember to well how heart wrenching these days and these sights can be.

Truly Blessed said...

The baby room shot reminds me so much of the baby rooms at Katie's SWI -- just heartbreaking. Not a thing to play with or look at, just other little babies within arms reach to give comfort.

Just heartbreaking. But so glad you went anyway -- like it or not, it's part of Finn's story and you'll be able to tell her, and show her, when she's older.

So glad you're having a good time, and I know you'll have fun at the Pearl Market! Take some time to meander the rabbit warren of shops on the lowest level, back behind the main shops there. There are some cool shops and the prices for jade and other items are dirt cheap compared to the main shops. Just a very, very cool experience.

Have fun!

Mommy said...

That first photo breaks my heart. I'm so glad she's in your arms now.