Sometimes I'd like to ask God why He allows poverty, famine and injustice when He could do something about it. But I'm afraid God might ask me the same question.

Wednesday, May 12, 2010

Spilling the beans...

so I can't believe you all... seriously I thought I was being so sly and subtle... obviously not. I thought I was going to have a few days to put together a nice thoughtful post :) Y'all seem less surprised than I am. Honestly if you were to have asked us last month if we were going to adopt again, our answers would have been, " NO". We have commented to each other over the past few months that our lives felt blissfully complete. We have the perfect mix of fun and chaos. I had long wondered if I was ever going to be one of those people who just know for sure that their family is complete,,, I admit I have a bit of envy for people that are living their plan. We felt that way for the last few months and I appreciated it.

Fast forward a few weeks.... Many of you know that I have a passion for these kids who wait for their families... I LOVE to help families find their children or help people get started on the adoption path. Well, I have been purposely trying to step away from looking at all the sweet faced photos of the waiting kids. It breaks my heart so, and I felt like I needed to move on a bit. Besides, I just went through our big move and I am having fun making our new house a home... and even bigger projects like growing our non-profit www.bloomproject.org which I am sooo stinkin' excited about.

In the past I have done my share of "underground" advocating for kids that touch my heart... and sometimes it works, there is no greater joy than helping put families together. So during the past year I had advocated for the most adorable little boy... His little face always just touched my heart, maybe because his younger photos look so much like our Finnley. Anyhow.. a good six months have passed and I haven't been in the adoption "loop"... Then I decided to sell something on craigslist...and it changed the course of our perfect plan :) The most adorable woman, with southern charisma that would put Paul@ Deen to shame came to my door. Within seconds she spotted photos of our family on the wall and started to tear up. Long super cute story made short, she wanted to adopt and I wanted to help her.

So I started looking at some of the waiting kiddos again... When I pulled up one site I saw his face again.... I had seen his face waiting for at least a year... I couldn't believe it... I felt ill. WHY? WHY? is this perfectly adorable little guy still waiting for his family. I read a 2 sentence short bio and I just didn't get why his family hadn't found him. Heartbroken, and yapping on the phone with one of my best girlfriends about how adorable he is and throwing it around that I should just go get him, I started getting butterflies. So I did the first thing that came to mind... copy and paste his photo into an email to my equally emotional hubby..Subject line- "I'm just saying" then typed up something along the lines of : "Doesn't Jack need a brother? I think he might. What do you think? Poor Jack, I think he needs a little brother. It's only fair. I look at this face and really i'm not kidding, he can call me Mama. "
And then I wait, wait for my man to completely ignore my email and instead the phone rings.

Since my fingers are cramping up and kiddos are biting at my ankle for a snack...I will continue the story tomorrow,,, I may even have a photo of the most adorable little guy to show off too :)

19 comments:

Anonymous said...

Amy. I. Can feel your joy..so happy for all of you.

Anonymous said...

Amy. I. Can feel your joy..so happy for all of you.

contented sparrow said...

what...tomorrow???! just kidding....looking forward to the rest of your story!

Jen said...

I am on the edge of my seat. And, to add you were the one that led me to switch to SN and get me linked to your agency where I found my DD. I owe you many thanks.

Jen

A Cup of Cold Water said...

oh don't tease!!! i was already blocking out my children's whines for this and that to get to the climax of the story! :) oh i can't wait!

Cara said...

Cruel, cruel, cruel!!! I feel like the power just went off in the middle of the climax of a really great movie!!!

groovy mama said...

What are you doing???? TOMORROW?

I CAN'T WAIT TIL TOMORROW! TONIGHT!
This is like a good book i can't put down! Happy happy for you!
Donna

Anonymous said...

Echoing everyone else's comments... what?!? This is too great of a story to pause midway. Can't wait to hear the rest! Congratulations to you and your beautiful family. And I'm especially thankful that you advocate for older kiddos who are waiting. God used you in a BIG way to bring us Joshua! :)
Sarah H.

Sharing Life and Love said...

Cruel....making us wait...
Ughhhh.
So very Happy for you.
Glued to your blog tomorrow.
Tomorrow, really?

Afamily4Him said...

Amy how precious and gifted are your words! How could anyone say no? You make the perfect arguement! I am beyond excited!!! I feel so lucky to have seen the sparkle in your eyes when you were talking about him in April...I feel like I am on cloud 9 with you!

Hebnix said...

Oh... this bites! WE gotta wait.... Just kiddin'! I'm glued to hear the ending!

Amy D. said...

Ohhhh I can hardly contain my excitement for you!! I cannot wait to hear the rest!!

xoxoox
Amy (your fellow BAASer!)
www.lotsokidz.blogspot.com

Annie said...

YAY!!! I am so happy for you and your family!!!

Truly Blessed said...

Oh my, what wonderful news! Knowing you and how fast you paperchase, you'll have this sweet little guy home by the time school starts again! You are amazing. Lucky little guy...

Happy, happy, happy for your family!

rgshrs said...

Oh Amy! So very happy for you and can't wait for the rest of the story! What an amazing start to your journey. A journey you didn't even know was waiting for you! AMAZING :)

Tammy ~ Country Girl at Home ~ said...

I can definitely see it in your plans. I actually had thought before that Jack needed a brother! I think it's wonderful...can't wait to hear the rest of the story! :)

Tammy

Cara said...

Oh, by the way, Xiaoqing does ROCK!

The Johnstons said...

How wonderful! I admire you so much. What a lucky little fellow.

myra said...

I am soooooo wonderfully happy and jealous at the sametime!!!! He's just beautiful and I know he will make a wonderful addition to your FABULOUS family. My story hasn't quite unfolded with the same ending yet, but I'm not giving up yet! When my son's "orphanage brother" came up for adoption last December I began advocating hard for him. The agency recently contacted me that a family was considering him and I had a full panic attack and decided they couldnt' have him...he was mine. I prayerfully approached my husband - not something you should talk them into you know - and it's been full 9 months since our first Gotcha Day - but I was gently told there was another son in our future, maybe him but just not yet....sigh.... hence the jealous part :) If you could pray that "bryce" with Madison find his family I'd appreciate it!!! Maybe us, maybe someone else...God's will!!! Good luck and I'll say a prayer for speedy A's!!!