Spilling the beans...

so I can't believe you all... seriously I thought I was being so sly and subtle... obviously not. I thought I was going to have a few days to put together a nice thoughtful post :) Y'all seem less surprised than I am. Honestly if you were to have asked us last month if we were going to adopt again, our answers would have been, " NO". We have commented to each other over the past few months that our lives felt blissfully complete. We have the perfect mix of fun and chaos. I had long wondered if I was ever going to be one of those people who just know for sure that their family is complete,,, I admit I have a bit of envy for people that are living their plan. We felt that way for the last few months and I appreciated it.

Fast forward a few weeks.... Many of you know that I have a passion for these kids who wait for their families... I LOVE to help families find their children or help people get started on the adoption path. Well, I have been purposely trying to step away from looking at all the sweet faced photos of the waiting kids. It breaks my heart so, and I felt like I needed to move on a bit. Besides, I just went through our big move and I am having fun making our new house a home... and even bigger projects like growing our non-profit www.bloomproject.org which I am sooo stinkin' excited about.

In the past I have done my share of "underground" advocating for kids that touch my heart... and sometimes it works, there is no greater joy than helping put families together. So during the past year I had advocated for the most adorable little boy... His little face always just touched my heart, maybe because his younger photos look so much like our Finnley. Anyhow.. a good six months have passed and I haven't been in the adoption "loop"... Then I decided to sell something on craigslist...and it changed the course of our perfect plan :) The most adorable woman, with southern charisma that would put Paul@ Deen to shame came to my door. Within seconds she spotted photos of our family on the wall and started to tear up. Long super cute story made short, she wanted to adopt and I wanted to help her.

So I started looking at some of the waiting kiddos again... When I pulled up one site I saw his face again.... I had seen his face waiting for at least a year... I couldn't believe it... I felt ill. WHY? WHY? is this perfectly adorable little guy still waiting for his family. I read a 2 sentence short bio and I just didn't get why his family hadn't found him. Heartbroken, and yapping on the phone with one of my best girlfriends about how adorable he is and throwing it around that I should just go get him, I started getting butterflies. So I did the first thing that came to mind... copy and paste his photo into an email to my equally emotional hubby..Subject line- "I'm just saying" then typed up something along the lines of : "Doesn't Jack need a brother? I think he might. What do you think? Poor Jack, I think he needs a little brother. It's only fair. I look at this face and really i'm not kidding, he can call me Mama. "

And then I wait, wait for my man to completely ignore my email and instead the phone rings.

Since my fingers are cramping up and kiddos are biting at my ankle for a snack...I will continue the story tomorrow,,, I may even have a photo of the most adorable little guy to show off too :)