Sometimes I'd like to ask God why He allows poverty, famine and injustice when He could do something about it. But I'm afraid God might ask me the same question.

Saturday, January 3, 2009

New Years Resolution (I just couldn't resist)

Ok, so this year, instead of shedding a few pounds, organizing my cupboards, or running a marathon ( all mighty fine goals, which I could stand to achieve) I resolve to make the DECISION to be happy.  I know this sounds small or cliche but I think it is really huge.  I remember when I was 12 or 13 years old and people would ask me what I wanted to be when I grew up, I thought I was being a little miss smarty pants to reply "I just want to be happy".  I was really just trying not put myself in a little box by giving a straight answer, and probably because I didn't have a clue.  Maybe I was closer than I thought.  Because everyone wants to be happy,Right?   What I didn't realize was that Happiness is not a stage, a thing, a place, an award, an accomplishment, or a bulging bank account.  Happiness is a choice. No matter my circumstance, if I CHOOSE to be filled with joy it is all within my power. Worry is a choice!  Sadness is a choice! Bitterness is a choice!  Joy is a choice! Peace is a choice! Faith is a choice! Happiness is a choice!
It all sounds so simple, but to live it and really feel it is something that I am just starting to practice.  I used to think I was a better Mom because I worried about my kids, and lately I realize that I was just robbing myself and them of Peace and Happiness. I am guilty of thinking I would be happy if I just had ____ or if so and so would just ____. It feels so wonderful to let all of this go, but it is not always easy. It is a decision that I have to make daily and sometimes hourly because lets face it, sometimes it's all about the little things.  Sometimes my worrisome thoughts start to creep in...Like a fix to an addict..I have to choose to think of something else. Is their a 12 step program for this because I think it could be a certified addiction?  And because I am a child of the 80's... This is what I will post on my little vision board and my 'fridge to help me remember!Ok, so I am very sad to admit that my (younger than me) husband had no idea who this was... Sad, really sad. I thought I was being funny and that EVERYONE would get this but I guess not.  For the one other person out there who doesn't know who this is  you  MUST click here, right now just click here!!!  There is no way that you can be over 26 years of age and have not heard this at least a thousand times!


chksngr said...

AMAZING resolution...such wisdom in this, Amy! BRAVO!

lorihays said...

I just came across your blog - what a cute, precious family you have! You can't help but have a happy New Year surrounded by them!


Mollieb said...

I don't know his name but I do know "who" he is. I think it sounds like a great plan. We should all try to do that!

Anonymous said...

bobby mcfarrin rocks - beth

Anonymous said...

I've had the "Don't Worry Be Happy" song playing in my head on and off since the eighties! And I've tried to follow that's a tough thing to do at times.
I am a true control-freak, so I've changed the song to "Don't try to control things, then you will be happy." It seems to work....most of the time.
Thinking about and praying for your little one in China.