Sometimes I'd like to ask God why He allows poverty, famine and injustice when He could do something about it. But I'm afraid God might ask me the same question.

Tuesday, April 21, 2009

I think I'm gonna be sick...


We got word today that Collin received the scholarship to study abroad next year, his Junior year of High School, he is going to be living in Beijing, China for 6 months, excuse me while I toss my cookies.  Am I supposed to be excited?  Not so much.. I am proud of him... but the over-protective (ask anyone that knows me, over protective is an understatement) Mommy that I am feels dizzy and scared for my not so baby. Come back to this blog around Christmas time of next year while we are packing his bags and help me pick the pieces of my heart up off the floor. I think we are at the point in life where I need him more than he needs me.  I am not ready to let him loose into this big crazy world, especially on the other side of it.  I can't even think about it all right now.  My Mommy emotions are in full gear.  Please pray for him, and me.  I pray that this experience is a positive one for him.  I know it will change him drastically, I just pray that it is for the best.  

5 comments:

Anonymous said...

Way to go C! Sorry Mom! We will be praying but are so happy to hear that he got it!

Jammi

chksngr said...

This is AMAZING!!! AWESOME JOB C!!! He will learn SO much and his world view will get some huge horizons! I'm praying for your peace and his protection, A. You've done a GREAT job as his momma...now he has the chance to take some of the amazing things you've taught him and take them into the world. HOW EXCITING!!!

Cheri said...

I know how tough it is. And you said it exactly..."you need him more than he needs you". I'm going through the same things with my 19 and 15 year olds. Mommyhood just tears your heart out. Hopefully, in 6 months you will have come to a place where you can hug him goodbye and not feel miserable about it all. And yes, it will change him, we pray for the good, though, and that he'll come back more appreciative and mature.

Cheri

Anonymous said...

fantastic collin - you are going to have a life changing experience:) so jealous!!!
beth

E said...

Oh no...How wonderful for Collin, but "I feel your pain"!